Reflections and New Beginnings

Surprise!! Yeah, I'm back at the blog. It's been months since I posted here. Truth is I had nothing to say. After Elephant Rock and summer vacation, my desire to get on a bike hit an all time low. So, I didn't. For months. The last thing in the world I wanted to do was walk down to storage, mount up and pedal. I can't say why, for sure. I can tell you that my attitude was not just limited to cycling. It spilled over into most aspects of my life. I talked to my doctor about it at my annual physical and she offered a suggestion. "Let's increase your depression meds."
Within a couple of weeks, I began to see a difference. I had days when I thought, "Wow, I'm really happy today." It had been a L-O-N-G time since a typical day resulted in a general feeling of happiness. But, I was having more and more of them. Gradually, I started to ponder my bike. I took it out for a little jaunt around the neighborhood just to test it out. Everything seemed to be working fine. I was not fit any more but I could ride. I was back at the beginning again, back on familiar ground.
Since then, I have been doing some weekend riding, weather permitting, when I take Lucas to the skate park. The Denver Skate Park is located on the Platte River at 20th and I-25. The Platte River Trail runs right beside it. It's pretty tough to argue that I'm better served sitting in the car with a good book than riding my bike along that trail.
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Oh brother! I just reread that last paragraph. Let's think this through... Is it possible that the weather would be good enough to ride a skateboard through the bowls and over the waves but not good enough to ride a bike???? Truth be told, there are conditions in which you can ride a bike but not a skate board but not the other way around. OK, note to self: If you are going to the skate park, take your frickin' bike, put your ass on it and ride somewhere!
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So, where was I? Oh, yeah, so I am back on my bike. This last weekend, I rode about 10 miles before the winter storm arrived. Snow is on the ground now and will be for the next few days. By next weekend, however, it will be near 50 degrees and I will get back on my bike.
As for my goal of 1855, well not this year. Although I have until March 1 to complete my miles, I won't make it. I'm not certain I am even half way. But, I am looking forward now. I'll keep the same goal for the coming year. I'm not going to attempt that crazy Elephant Rock in June. I have signed up for a different event. I am going to ride for Eddie and MS research in the MS Bike Kansas City ride in September. To be ready to complete that two day ride, I will need to ride regularly and often throughout the summer. Until the weather is consistently agreeable, I'll ride when Lucas skates (and he skates if it's above freezing and the park is clear of snow), get my bike tuned, and eat healthy.
It's good to be back in the saddle again.

Biking after ERock

My attitude toward biking was very poor after my experience at Elephant Rock. It had been the goal that I had been focused on. Now, it was over. The next ride I had scheduled was a Meet Up that I organized. As a member of the Denver and Front Range Cycling group, I had scheduled an easy ride on the trails of Aurora and Denver for the following Wednesday, just 3 days after the hills of Douglas County. There were five riders in the group. We planned to ride about 15 miles at a slow speed of 10-12 mph.

I had to look forward and not back. New day, new ride.

We rode about two miles and came to a fairly busy street. One rider in the group chose to cross against the light, in front of turning traffic. She proceeded down the trail and across other streets without waiting for the group. When we finally caught up to her, I asked that she stay with the group. She suggested that I just pretend that she wasn't with the group. Done! From that point on, I just rode to get to the end. As the ride organizer, I felt responsible for the group. I no longer wanted that responsibility and the sooner the ride was over, the sooner I would not be responsible for anyone but myself. Again, I wasn't having any fun doing this activity that I had chosen BECAUSE it was fun.

One of my many supporters, Trevor, from my office, could see that I was at risk of bagging the whole thing, parking my bike and returning to the chips and dip. He suggested that I sign up for another ride quickly. Another ride, right! He suggested one of the lesser rides at the upcoming Denver Century event. I checked the website. There was a 22-mile Family Fun Ride that went out and back on the Platte River trail. It was a nice, flat ride. OK, I thought, one more time. I registered for the event and signed Lucas up, too.

When the day of the event arrived, I considered just going to pick up the t-shirts. I didn't get Lucas and moving until after 8am. Once he was up, I was moving on auto pilot. Load the bikes. Fill the water bottles. Drive to Invesco Field, the starting/ending point for the ride. No traffic jams this time. This was the first year of this event and most riders started much earlier. There were some riders that were obviously doing the same course we were. Families were unloading their bikes, applying sunscreen and making a last pit stop at the port-a-potties.

Lucas and I did the ride together. We had a great time. It was a beautiful course, shaded with lush green trees that lined the river. We rode 11 miles to Littleton, enjoyed the snacks at the aid station and rode back. I led as we were outbound. Lucas led as we returned to the finish line. Most importantly, we had fun. I was so happy to have found the good things about this activity that I had lost at E-rock and on the Meet Up ride.

Now, I know that I enjoy rides that are fun and that is the only reason for me to ride. I don't have anything to prove to myself. I don't have to meet any unreasonable challenge. I do have to keep riding for my health and for my pleasure. My rides now will be for me, with people I love, for the fun of it. I have been riding with Sarah, Libby's sister. I gave her my old mountain bike and she was thrilled with the feeling for freedom and peace that came from being on a bike. We will ride often. Tomorrow, we'll ride the Platte River trail. We'll start in Littleton and ride to Confluence Park (Starbucks at REI makes a great aid station) and back. On Sunday, we will do an early morning ride around Cherry Creek Reservoir. We'll enjoy the sounds of the birds singing. We might see some other wildlife. Now, that sounds like fun.

Goal update: Current miles completed - 613

2010 Elephant Rock Cycling Festival 6/6/2010

festival n. An occasion for feasting or celebration, especially a day or time of religious significance that recurs at regular intervals.
It was a time of religious experience for me as I challenged myself to ride 34 miles through the rolling hills of the horse country east of Castle Rock.  My prayers started in the middle of the night as I tossed and turned, unable to sleep as the ride weighed heavy on my mind.   I knew I had signed up for the most extreme physical challenge I had ever tried.  I'm not fit.  I am fitter than I was 100 days ago when I bought my bike.  I'm fitter than I have been any time in the last 10 years.  But, I am still 60 lbs overweight.  I still get winded on even small hills.  I still don't have any real speed when I ride.
So, in the middle of the night, I prayed I would be safe, that I wouldn't get hurt.  I asked for the same for my brother, Jim, and sister-in-law (sister), Lynn, who were also riding.  And I asked for the courage to give it my best effort.
My alarm was set for 4:15am.  We were due to meet up with our family to caravan at 5:00.  I rolled over to see how much time I had left to sleep to find that it was 4:40am!  Shit!  I jumped up, pulled on my bike shorts and jersey and woke Lucas!  "We have to go!  Get up!"  While he pulled on his socks and shoes, I slapped together 2 peanut butter and jelly sandwiches to give me a little energy for my ride.  I threw everything into bags and we were out the door. Loading the bike on the car, we were off.  Amazingly, we arrived by 5:03am.  Minutes later, we were on our way.  While traffic was light, most of the cars on the road were loaded with bikes.  Eight thousand cyclists were expected to participate in this festival.  As we approached Castle Rock, the rush was over and rush hour had started.  It took 45 minutes to make our way off the highway and over to the Douglas County Fairgrounds, a distance of less than 5 miles.
There was no official start; no gun went off to launch a sea of cyclists.  Instead, riders set out as soon as they were ready.  Jim was riding the 62-mile course so he set out right away.  I took a few minutes to make sure Lucas was ready for his time hanging out while we were riding.  He had some money in his pocket, video games and music in the car.  He was good with his situation so there were no more reasons to put this off any longer.
The fairgrounds and starting line sit down in the middle of a topographic hole.  Everyone had to climb out of that hole no matter which ride they were doing, 100 miles, 62 miles, 34 miles (my ride), 25 miles or the 7-mile family ride.  Lynn chose to ride with me so we began our climb.  The first uphill stretch was about 4 miles long and an elevation gain of 400 feet. I knew I would be slow but I hoped to apply the tortoise's rule that slow and steady would win the race.  Unfortunately, I don't have the tortoise's experience.  I was nervous and scared and I began to panic.  I had trouble breathing, couldn't catch my breath.  My heart was racing.  My self talk was not very helpful.  "I can't do this.  I should turn around.  I want to go home!"
Lynn stuck with me and could see my distress.  She knew I was responding physically to my fear and nerves.  She calmed me and reassured me.  She explained that panic was playing a part in my struggle.  When I pulled off and sobbed, Lynn reminded me that she'd been there, too.  She did Ride the Rockies one year and cried every day.  She supplied me with the empathy I needed to calm down, dig a little deeper and keep going.  Eventually, we made it to the top of that first hill.  The reward was a downhill section that was equal in length.  At the bottom of that hill, was our first Aid Station.  Bananas, grapes, muffins, trail mix, water and Porta-Potties were waiting for us.  I soared down the hill and savored the feeling of really moving.  I hit speeds of 25 to 30 mph in stark contrast to the 3 to 4 mph pace I had climbing the hill.  While concentrating on holding my bike steady at that speed, I also tried to calm down and slow my breathing.  This was my chance to recover and prepare for what was ahead.
Reaching the first aid station was a major victory!  My hands were shaking as I tried to peel my banana.  I needed the sugars packed in the fruit.  I also drank plenty of water and had a Clif bar.  At this point, I knew the size of the next challenge.  It was the hills I had ridden to prepare for this event.  I knew they were hard and I knew they were long. 
Lynn had a tire that was losing air so, while she checked into getting it repaired, I set off for the next leg.  We both knew she would be able to catch up to me so it seemed reasonable to push on alone.  Actually, it was kind of nice.  Riding alone is what I had done for the last few months.  I would set my own pace and tackle the course in my own way.  It also gave me time to think.
For the next couple of miles UPHILL, I had a chat with myself.  “You paid money for this?  Are you crazy?  It isn’t any fun.  In fact, it’s stupid.”  Yeah, I got quite a talkin’ to.  Lynn showed up and I got a break from the nagging.  She offered me encouragement and much needed acknowledgement of how far I had come to make it to the course at all.  She kept me going while assuring me that each mile was an amazing accomplishment.  I walked from time to time when the hills required more than I had to give.  The riders who passed me were gracious and supportive.  They checked on my condition and inquired about possible mechanical problems.  I was comfortable enough in my situation to assure them that I was fine, just ascension challenged.
From time to time, Lynn chose the spots where we would stop to rest and have some water.  At one stop, she realized that the advice she got at the aid station was erroneous.  Another rider thought her tire would be fine if she just pumped it up.  He thought the leak was slow enough that she could make it without changing the tube.  Wrong.  Her tire went flat as we drank.  She pulled off the course and planned to change it herself.  She admitted that this would take some time as she is not very skilled at this.  Again, I set off alone.  And again, the self talk started.  This time, it was joined by an ever growing head wind.  “This really is stupid.  You having a good time?  I’m not.  I want to go home and NEVER ride these hills again.”
The wind picked up so that even the flat spots and the downhill sections were hard.  My earlier downhill speed was no longer possible.  By now, my downhill speed was not topping 10 mph.  I had settled into a rhythm of sorts, riding until I was too tired, and then walk for awhile.  It was slow-going.  By the time Lynn caught up to me again, I had come to a decision.  I would ride to the next aid station and take the SAG wagon back to the fairgrounds.  She was completely supportive of my decision and, again, assured me that I had done a great job.
When she was certain that volunteers were aware of my desire to SAG back, she continued her ride.  It took a few minutes for the truck to arrive.  When it did, five riders jumped on board.  Several had crashed; one had a possible broken thumb.  At least one other ride was just done, like me.  We drove back to the first aid station where we picked up a mother and son who had arrived there too late for refreshment.  They were done too.  Back near the fairgrounds, the roads were so full of cyclists that the truck stopped on the road outside the entrance.  I was able to ride down the hill and across the finish line.  Lucas was there waiting as I rode up.  I told him that I hadn’t ridden the whole way.  He was surprised but not disappointed.  Within a minute or two, Lynn crossed the finish line.  I had barely beaten her back.  It wasn’t much longer before Jim rode in completing his 62 miles.  It was over.  I had ridden about 19 miles of the 35 mile course.  I had climbed the biggest hills of the course and rode the section that went into the wind.
We had lunch and then Lucas rode a kids’ ride, a race through the grass in a loop with other 11 and 12 year olds.  As we cheered him on, he mashed the pedals in high gear and took second place.  It was great to watch him compete. 
Later that night, the phone rang.  It was Jim calling to tell me how proud he was of me.  He told me that what I had done that day was the most courageous thing he had ever seen.  And, I cried.  Courageous???  All I had thought all day was that I had done a stupid thing.  I had taken on a challenge that was way, way out of my league.  I had been naïve in thinking that this was something I was able to do.  Yet, he viewed me as courageous.  That was something for me to think about. 

After 10 weeks

It's been 10 weeks since I purchased my bike and began riding.  In that time, I have logged an amazing 455 miles and completed almost one fourth of my goal miles.  I love to ride my bike but I am amazed that I have managed so much.

My longest ride is 32 miles.  I did that distance today after riding 31 miles two days ago.  I can admit that I am a bit relieved that the weather is predicted to be bad for riding for the next few days.  Parts of my body are happy for the break!

I am so grateful for the love and support of my family and friends.  They cheer me on, express their joy at my accomplishments and celebrate my victories.  I love you all so much.

Uphills and down

Who would have thought that a little biking to get fit would have resulted in actual "training?" Well, folks, that's what's happened. I started riding my bike at the end of February. It wasn't long before I thought, "I could actually register for an organized ride." Easy enough, pay the fee and you're in.

Next step, find out where the ride will take me and drive that route. The route is 34 miles. I knew that. I have been riding 15-25 so I didn't see a problem with distance. Then, I got a look at the actual road.
OMG, what have I done?!
The route was riddled with hills. Not one or two, but many. That meant, I had to now think about my rides; I had to train to prepare for those hills. But where? Where could I find hills that would challenge me without deterring me? I asked other riders, including the guy at work that competes in triathlons and my older brother who does Ride the Rockies. Their suggestions were good but I thought I needed something different.
So, yesterday, I went back to the course I would face in 7 weeks. I parked at the bottom of a hill, unloaded my bike and mounted up. For 35 minutes, I rode uphill covering almost 4 miles. When I didn't think I had another hill in me, I turned around and headed for the car. It took less than 15 minutes to travel the same distance. Going up, my average speed was roughly 7 miles per hour. On the brief trip back to the car, I maxed out at 34 mph.
After I got my bike back on the car, I drove up the hills to see what was beyond the point where I turned around. To my surprise, I was a short distance for a long flat plateau.

I will ride again tonight or tomorrow. I will tackle those same hills again knowing that I have already done the worst of the ride. When I get to the top, I'll be rewarded not only with the satisfaction of having bested myself, but with a breathtaking view of the front range of the Rocky Mountains.

It's Easter, it's Spring!!

I am so happy that it finally feels like Spring out there.  It was Lucas' Spring Break this week so I took a few days off, too, in hopes that we could do some riding together.
I worked Monday and Tuesday and successfully rode to work on Monday.  The ride to work was a little dicey because I chose a direct route straight in on 17th.  I had to negotiate through traffic, no fun.  Determined to find a better way, I followed a bike route home heading east on 7th and then cutting over to Alameda between Monaco and Quebec.  I felt safer, avoided the traffic and was surprised to find that the route was a tenth of a mile shorter than the route to work.  Round trip was almost 18 miles.  Those 18 on top of the 23 miles the day before were all than my backside could take so I drove to work on Tuesday.
Tuesday night, we attended a class at REI on training for the long ride.  I plan on riding in the Elephant Rock Ride in June so a few tips from professionals couldn't hurt.  The session was informative but I left feeling a little intimidated.  I had not really thought about the other 1499 people who would be traveling the same way at the same time.  I'm not much for crowds especially when I am on my bike.  I am trying to put that out of my mind and just focus on my training.
Wednesday, we bought a bike for Lucas.  With it, I was confident that he could keep up with me and would enjoy riding.  On Thursday, we put that theory to the test.  We drove to Cherry Creek State Park to try a ride around the lake.  You might remember that I have not made that loop yet.  Each ride as gotten me closer to that goal but I hadn't yet actually entered the park.
We set out at about 10:30 in the morning.  The birds were singing and the sounds of nature were wonderful.  As we rode, my plan was to keep the water on our left.  We chatted some but also rode in silence, listening to the sounds around us.  On this weekday morning, it often seemed that we were the only ones in the park.  After about 40 minutes, the trail we were on headed out of the park.  Hmm, that didn't seem right.  I knew we were pretty far south.  Sure we just missed a turn somewhere, I turned us around.  I was worried that this might not be the positive experience for Lucas that I had hoped.  Well, God bless him, he kept his sense of humor.  We discussed our options at every intersection and traveled some routes that were not meant for bikes.  Eventually, we made our way to the Park Office.  There Lucas found a much needed restroom and I got an obviously needed map along with some explicit directions from the Park Ranger.  With renewed confidence, we set out for the trail that would take us around the dam and back to the car.  We survived the ride which was over 14 miles!  We could only think about one thing when we were back in the car.  LUNCH!
Saturday, I signed up for the Elephant Rock Ride committing to ride the 34 mile course.  Once I had paid my non-refundable fee, we set out to see what I was in for.  We drove the route.  It leaves from the Douglas County fairgrounds heading up a fairly long hill.  It then wanders around the hills east of Castle Rock and over to Franktown before returning to the fairgrounds.  As I drove up and down, up and down, I had one thought that kept running through my head.  WTF was I thinking?!?!?!
Training took on a whole new meaning.  I couldn't just ride to ride and clock miles.  I actually needed to prepare for these miles, crowds and hills.  #$%^!!
I am happy to say that the week ended on a high note.  Rather than celebrating Easter by overeating a wonderful brunch and a few chocolate eggs, we went for a ride with family!  We were back at the reservoir with Jim and Lynn.  We rode another 14+ miles but were never lost.  There were plenty of hills.  I was often the last to the top but I climbed those hills, I paced myself.  I did it.
I wrapped up the week with a total of 46.35 miles for the week.  That's a new weekly high.  And, for those of you keeping track, I have now ridden 205.6 miles towards my goal of 1855 miles! 

23 Miles to the Reservoir

From Drop Box

Yes, today's ride was 23 miles long and a sign of my frustration with the Spring snow that kept it cold and wet most of the week.  
On Monday, I rode 13 miles and found my way to the Cherry Creek trail  which would take me to the reservoir if I turned left.  Riding after work and racing against the sun, I knew I wouldn't make it to the reservoir that night and turned right.  The trail was very  peaceful for the mile or two I rode before getting to Iliff where I could connect with the Highline Canal trail that would take me home.  I make it home safely but without the benefit of the sun.  I cut it too close to make it home in the light.
Tuesday, snow.  Wednesday, schools closed and work delayed to 10am. Thursday, lots of melting slush.  Friday, rain.  Really?!  Saturday, cold but I couldn't stand another day without a ride.  It was a quick 6.75 miles but it was a ride.  I knew warmer weather was coming so I was satisfied. 
Today, I was committed to making it to the Cherry Creek State Park where the reservoir is the centerpiece.  I set out shortly after noon following the route I defined on Monday.  It seemed easier this time, maybe because I knew what to expect.  In no time, I made it to my trail-head and turned left.  Now, every turn was a surprise.  I admit that I was a little frustrated when I crossed Havana headed east and realized I was only about two blocks south of where I had been before I made it to the trail.  I  am not  much for doubling back on myself when I am traveling under my own power.  Let it go, I thought.  A few minutes further down the trail, I reached my biggest obstacle to date.  There was a fairly short but really steep hill.  I am proud to say that I didn't dismount and walk but must admit that walking might have been faster!  I needed lower gears than ever before to make that climb.  I reached the top winded and exhausted.
After catching my breath and taking this photo, I decided I could go further still. 

From Drop Box

I opted to follow the trail along I-225 to the west.  It wrapped around the dam and came to an intersection right by Cherry Creek High School and the entrance to the park.

From Drop Box

At this point, I considered my goal met.  I had ridden about 10 miles.  I noticed a number of riders who had driven to the high school and parked, unloaded their bikes and set out around the reservoir.  Cheaters, I thought.  Riding along on my moral high horse, I turned around to head back toward home.  I finished my ride by following Monday's route from the Cherry Creek trail to the Highline Canal.  By the time I got home, I had travelled 23 miles in about two and a half hours.
I'm beat but proud.  I'll sleep well tonight, which is a good thing.  Tomorrow, I plan to ride to work.